i feel wrong.

most importantly i feel wrong because i am unable to do what i want. i want to make music and i want to game and i want to write. but i cant imagine a story that i like and i cant find a game i want to play and i cant make music because i want to do it with others yet noone is around.

i feel very stuck.

it seems to once again be the problem of having done "too much" creativity to keep going for now. i need to do something else, something purely consumptive. but i dont WANT to. i Want to make stuff, i want to build, i want to write, i want to make noise.

but my sea of ideas has dried up for now. anything i can do right now can only feed on the dribble trickling in.