it turns out i am in fact much more stoppable than i thought. an infection with salmonella, combined with extreme summer heat in an environment im not comfortable wearing only a shirt in, can actually stop me extremely well from doing essentially anything at all. nearly no writing, nearly no going outside, nearly no doing anything at all really.

you can stop me from doing anything, but you cant stop me from changing myself and my environment in at least some ways. i did buy a binder to make it so that wearing a shirt is more doable outside. i am also adjusting my sleep cycle so that i will be sleeping in the afternoon instead of at night. this is horrible for social life, but it is imperative for antisocial life, if said antisocial life is impaired by the heat.

i dont like having spent approximately 50€ today. 20 for a binder, 10 for a cable to be turned into an antenna, 20 for crisps. not too proud of the crisps purchase, but ill make sure this lasts me a while and i wont buy any more for quite a bit. the antenna and crisps were somewhat optional, but having stuff to craft things with and other stuff to satisfy my abnormal urges is a pretty subjectively important thing, so i will have to bear the consequences of less money.

we will see how i will do once i have the god damned salmonella out of my system. with a good chance, i will be doing a lot better.
in fact, i am already starting to do better in that department, at least i think i am. with some luck, soon will be good.