good evening.

i am conflicted.

i do not know what to do.

i can kill or i can preserve. i have a lot of lore about myself that i could write down. or i could deliberately let it fade into nothingness.

i can kill or i can preserve. i have a lot of data i made that i could back up better. or i could press delete.

i can kill or i can preserve, and i dont know which hurts more. nostalgia has so far always been one of my most behated feelings. but i might still one day want to remenisce. and deletion is forever, only preservation requires work. i could also just let it be up to chance. if the hard drive survives, so do the memories, but i might want to kill them deliberately instead. and i might want to preserve them instead because i have had instances where i kinda wanted to check out an old picture again, even if just to double-check some memories.

i do not know what to do. i am conflicted.