it is time for me to clean up my online presence. i have been engaging with the internet for what is effectively all my life, so i suspect i will continue to do so. in the event that i do, and under the assumption that the world will continue to be such that i need to "get a j*b" to survive (i have no issues with doing productive shit obviously, i do that all the time, i just prefer it to not be in the system we call "working"), i will need to "look good" to our overlords when you google my legal name.

unfortunately, when you google my legal name right now, it is uncomfortably connected with my online persona. this online persona is probably a better representation of myself than i want recruiters to see. thus, i am now erasing as many traces between the two that are openly accessible as possible.

of course, they will find me anyway if i actually send in an application with references to stuff i did in it - but at least that is something i can control and, in a sitation where it is necessary, stop.

ssssso really this is cope for not having done better from the start. i can be pretty happy i didnt ever get doxed on one of the sites that make it hard to remove. and that is about all i can be pretty happy about with how i handled the separation. because really, theres nothing that can fix this. it sucks, but luckily i dont really care that it does beyond wanting to undo some of the consequences. the past is the past is the past is the past is the past is not the present and cannot be fixed in post. buuuttttt i can at least try to wipe the most obvious traces and do better.