it is somewhat rare, but music, too, can bring clarity; and while it has not yet reached a point where i actually feel justified naming this self clarity, it is enough of a contrast to do it anyway.

i am still quite tired, which probably still contributes to what is left of the confusion. for this reason, i will be going to sleep after finishing this album, or maybe even before then.

i still do not feel quite clear enough to write anything particularly notable, but that is okay. infinite growth is unsustainable even when referring to the quality or style of writing. ideas take time, and i dont have enough of that right now. there are only a few rotations of the clock left before the next exam, although i suspect most readers will not find this analogy very intuitive due to the rise of digital clocks. while digital clocks are very convenient, their precision and division make them at the same time somewhat antithetical to my war against the social construct of time. unfortunately however, i will not win this war any time soon, and so i keep a hybrid watch on my wrist which shows me both the fake time and the slightly less fake time.

there is actually one use for "accurate" time i can name that i do not disagree with: high efficiency sleep schedules. even these are best based around the sun, but still require minutewise precision to reach their best efficiency. that might be a lie, but in this case it is at least certain that more precision is usually better. however, even this should be based around the sun rather than an atomic clock with timezones.

germany has unfortunately reached july outside, despite the calendar still reading 2nd of may, two months earlier than july. this subtly hints towards the next month presenting as august outside, followed by hyperaugust, later dropping back to august and continuing from there. sadly, hyperaugust is not a month i expect to particularly enjoy as it is likely to come with the unenterable_attic debuff, with my room being in the attic. even currently, the temperature in this room climbs to far above 30°C easily, with outside reaching 27°. i have installed cardboard in front of my windows to keep the sun from shining in and causing a greenhouse effect, but this does not prove entirely sufficient and is unfortunately affected by rain.

but hey, at least by the end of this month i will be done with school and thus have enough time to come up with solutions or not.