good evening. did you know burnout sucks? yes you do, but did you know i have it? probably also yes, but i want to write about it anyway. when not burnt out, i can usually do a lot of shit even if i dont really want to, simply because i then decide that i would like to be nice to people so i do what they want. however, when burnt out, this becomes increasingly hard to do, resulting in me giving up either on myself (my wishes) or on others (others' wishes). i have decided that i am done giving up myself entirely, though i need to somewhat continue being nice because i dont want more trouble and unnecessary work that would worsen it. my solution is called "be nice when needed or when i feel like it", replacing my burnoutless default called "be nice always unless i cant help it".

this changes my policy from a positive-default one to a negative-default one. i dont love the idea of doing this, but it seems like thats what is needed.