i cannot be bored.

for a long time i felt like boredom was a horrible terrible thing, but i have realized that boredom does not exist. boredom is not the state of having nothing to do, but the state of having nothing to do that you consider valuable enough to be worth your time. this is why you can be bored while having something to do. and it means you cannot be bored if you do not have highly valuable time. if your time is virtually infinite and you do not dread the future, whatever you do in the present will be worth your time and thus not be boring, unless it is actively repulsive.

i dont need the phone when going outside. i dont need entertainment or even music, because just existing and doing nothing is already fine. i think my walks can somewhat be compared to pilgrimages. there is no goal and you have as much time as you want, and your primary action is thinking and taking in the present. but its not just my walks, i do this kind of thing much more often.

furthermore i tend to change a lot on these walks.

one thing i realized is that the reason i say i change every day, many times even, is that i am my thoughts, and by constantly killing my thoughts and replacing them with new ones, i am constantly replacing my current self, killing it and making a new one.

the analogy is getting old. i need to change it up, but i have yet to find a better one.

i actually dont think it is an analogy, which is why i cant find a better one, but i might be able to find a metaphor that fits what i am looking for. i have found one, but im not telling you yet.